Got a Secret, Can you keep it? [Leela's Journal]

[Leela Marie Cavanaugh]

So here I am starting a journal. I don’t know why I’m doing this, ok so I do. Poor Kat has listen to me ramble on and on about stuff for the past month. I figured I could give her a break and just write things down. Every time I’m coming her way I feel like she’s thinking oh god why. Not that I can’t just read her mind but I feel it’s a bit intrusive. Even though she is my best friend and we tell each other everything anyway. She’s even met a guy named Logan? I think that’s his name she’s been telling me all about him so I guess it’s an even exchange.

Anyway.., Last week a traded bodies with this guy I really like. To walk a mile in someone else’s shoes became a new meaning to me. He saw everything in pictures it was the most beautiful mind I have ever stumbled in to. Even when I’m in my own mind his is still wonderful to explore. Well we had out first kiss in each other’s bodies, tell me that’s not completely crazy! We also can to the realization that we wanted to become a couple. I figure that if we can live through being each other we can get through anything. Shit this journal is becoming a huge love ramble about Din. I feel like a crazy fan girl talking about him in a JOURNAL.

If you could see me right now I’m shaking my head and laughing. Not to mention that I have a song stuck in my head, I wonder if he can even hear my thoughts right now. Our minds are connected, oh god this is getting more embarrassing by the minute. I all ready have a song that reminds me of him Drive by and Train sings it. Oh god now I’m listening to songs thinking of him? I guess he has captured my heart and mind by force. I don’t even think he realizes he is doing this to me. Ugh!

Then there is the whole nation thing I’ve brought him in to. I didn’t mind having the burden on me of not telling any one but now he has to keep a secret too. And if he does accidently tell… well more like write to someone or flash images it’s my ass and I know Alfred would murder me…. Maybe others would murder me? This is all getting to confusing I’m going to go off and meditate to clear my mind.

Listening to: Drive by-Train

But now here you are again
So let's skip the "how you been"
And get down to the "more than friends" at last
Oh but that one night
Is still the highlight

[Leela Marie Cavanaugh]

So I’ve been stuck in my dorm room all day studying and listening to music. The music part was the thing that keeping me sane. I swear people who just go in to the library and sit there in silence and can actually learn… they are ROBOTS! Ok maybe they just have minds that can work in silence I cannot. My computer is my best friend right now, gives me music and lets my type up note cards. Who invented tests anyway? I would just like to rip up a test and leave a class see how many jaws dropped around me as I did. Then again the teacher would probably hate me and flunk me out of the class. I wish I could just go outrageous things and go back in time and fix them… Wait I think Tessa her name was? Can’t she do that? She seems more like the straight and narrow type them helping me out with doing childish things. I could always try and plant thoughts in my teacher’s head like ‘oh tests are for squares you don’t want to be a square do you?’ I’d probably get in trouble since I don’t know how many other people have powers like mine. Plus the teachers have to know what kid has which power… right? Then again it’s college they don’t care if you fail out.

I should really call my family I haven’t talked to them in weeks I feel like such a horrible daughter/sister. I’m sure my brother doesn’t mind being the only child. He now can get away with so much more with out me there reading his mind when my parents need information. I just realized they always used me as the bad guy so they didn’t have to be in that position. I should bring that up next time they ask why I need a new something. I don’t really buy a lot of things, so probably wouldn’t benefit me any way. I wonder when the next party is going to be, I should buy a new cute dress. That would be something I needed, ok not need but I need a shopping trip! I wonder where Kat is and if she would be down with going out. I need to tuck this Journal away and keep writing up notes and studying the test isn’t not going to stop cause I don’t want to study. Well adios!

Listening to: We’ve got a big mess on our hands by The academy is

Somebody get my phone
So I can throw it in a public
Pool and watch it float
And as it slowly sinking down,
Become a social ghost

[Leela Marie Cavanaugh]

So I am once again holed up in my room bored. I really think I spend too much time in here considering I’m a college student. I should be out roaming around making friends or actually inviting friends out to go with me places. At least I have my good ol’ music to keep my company. Well I did go out the other day to the pool. I couldn’t take being in her anymore. I was staring at a wall for a good ten minutes before I snapped out of it and left. How lame am I?

Apparently a lot of people had the same idea. When I got there people were littered everywhere. I saw a new boy didn’t catch his name or even talk to him. Then again I was a little preoccupied with my brain going on the fritz. I had a mini headache; emotions and thoughts from everyone were running high. I did finally get to meet Kat’s boyfriend he seemed nice. He definitely made her happy and that is a must. He face lit up every time he came over to chat, but he didn’t stay long. Can’t blame him I wouldn’t want to listen to girls chatting either if I was a boy. He’s pretty handsome too, I’m glad she found someone to make her happy. Din made an appearance said the images of the pool were running rampant around my head. With the headache I was having I’m sure they were. It’s sometimes hard to keep thoughts at bay when I’m in a crowd. –rolls eyes-

I should probably get out of my dorm and do something. See if there is anyone I can harass with my metal ability. It’s sometimes fun if they aren’t bent out of shape after. I wonder if Din is doing anything, we can mentally harass people together. Maybe I’ll shoot him a text or even just ask mentally. Although I kind of all ready did with out realizing it? Meh at least it saves me ten cents on a text and so much easier since I really have no idea where my phone is at the moment anyway…

Listening to:Hellogoodbye- Dear Jamie..Sincerely me

Dear Jamie I've got some things I'd like to set in pen
I would have used a pencil but lead's just not permanent.
Should I trust my printer's ink?
To express the things I think?